Childhood now and then.

Dear friends,

just the other day I attended a very interesting meeting and it made me think for a minute. When I was a child I almost never heard words such as "don't do it", or "be careful". I climbed on trees and rode bicycle without a helmet, I swam without any swimming gear,I played in dirt, well I guess what I am trying to say I had a very free and adventurous childhood. I will admit that I did hurt myself several times, I have knocked a tooth out and broke a leg, I had stitches in my chin and many bruises, yet I am still here unharmed and I laugh at things I did when I was younger and have amazing memories. That was long time ago, look at the NOW. There are so many overprotective parents. They misuse the words "don't do it", or "no" or "stop". Some don't even allow their children to play outside because they are scared they will get hurt, but let me ask you something, how should children learn? I have heard many times that people learn from their own mistakes, but how can children  learn from their mistakes if they are not even given a chance to make any?

If your child wants to climb the tree- let him- climbing trees is the most amazing thing ever. I loved sitting on benches and reading books or just looking at the world from the above and pretending I was flying. If your child wants to play in the mud- let him- you have a washer and shower, you can clean up later. Allow your child to make memories, allow your child to have something to talk about, give them a childhood they will never forget,because you know what, they are only children once.

The wedding planner.

Ever since I was a little girl I was dreaming of being a princess even if it was only for a day. And coming from a family that was far away from royal I knew that one day I am going to be a princess and that day would be my wedding day. All girls plan their wedding day many years in advance, and when I say many, I mean once we turn like six, at least I did. We picture ourselves in this beautiful white dress, with our hair all perfect and all eyes on us on that one special day. So when we finally find our prince and commit ourselves to a great relationship and finally decide to get married, putting a wedding together shouldn’t be a problem, especially after already planning it for years. Let me tell you my princess story. After five years of being in a relationship my boyfriend proposed to me, I was on cloud seven that day. Later that evening we set our date for the biggest day in our lives. One week from our engagement day. My fiancé would have been just happy with a simple” I do” at the court house but I wanted to have my princess moment. He thought that if he gives me less time to plan I will finally give in and go with the –no guests-just us wedding. Oh boy was he wrong. I simply told him to let me plan our wedding and all I expected from him is to show up wearing his suit and a purple tie. I had no time to spare; I started to turn my lifelong dream into a reality. 


The same day we got engaged I already had flowers and cake ordered, I bought outfits for my flower girls, I called about marriage license and picked up the application, I found a dress. A dress that became very special to me, dress my sister in law gave me, but I had to get it altered. After about 10 phone calls I have found a lady who took the challenge to alter my dress in five days, and let me tell you she did a wonderful job. On day two I found us a minister who married us, and luckily my brother in law whose ordination ceremony was just days before that said that it would be his honor. On the third day, location was “locked in” and guests were invited and we had our first pre marriage counseling session. On day four foods was ordered and I started to get nervous. On day five I have purchased wedding band for my soon to be husband. On day six, the busiest one yet, because that’s where I was picking up my dress, and flowers. But the florist I have trusted to make my bouquets has let me down. And there I was one day before my wedding with no flowers. I didn’t want my big day to be ruined just because of that. I drove to another florist nearby and he has saved the day. He had no experience putting wedding bouquets together, whatsoever, but the flowers turned out better than I could have imagined. Day seven, the big day, I woke up super early since there was still cake that had to be picked up and our food, and all that had to be taken to the gym of our church where we had our reception. I finished everything with four hours to spare until the ceremony. 


 My princess day was just the way I have pictured it throughout all the years and if you exactly know what you want on that day or how you want it, since you have been planning it for years now, putting it together shouldn’t be a problem. I had a dream wedding and it only took me seven days to put it together, but let me tell you something: I wouldn’t want to do it again.

Don't dream your dream, live your dream.

I have many dreams just like probably all of you. One of my dreams was to have a son, a little baby boy I can call MINE. It was always just a dream and I never actually thought I will have one, so I kept on dreaming. One day I finally talked to my fiance and we came to the conclusion that we had enough children and that this would be one dream that would never come true. I accepted that and I did not put the dream on hold I simply erased it out of my brain. I started to concentrate again on my school and career and my daughters and so on. One month after the conversation I found out that I was pregnant. Totally not planned and it was a shock for both of us. From the day of peeing on the stick I started to hope for a little boy, I told myself "hey I am pregnant now, so please let it be a boy at least." It was not until late September when I found out the gender of our child and I have cried tears of joy when the nurse told me that we are going to have a little BOY. I was the happiest woman on earth.
Today one week after our sons birth I am still crying tears of joy every time I look at MY SON. After years of dreaming I am holding my dream in my arms every day and I will hold him for the rest of my life. I never thought that it would feel so amazing to have one of your biggest dreams come true. Its like you still cannot believe that you are no longer dreaming this dream, you are living this dream and nobody can take that away from you.
It's like you are saving money to buy your dream car or your first house and you finally get it and you drive the car or start moving into your home, you still cannot believe it. You cry from joy and you tell yourself I cannot believe it. That's how I feel, I am complete, I feel complete. I have a son and he is all MINE.
So friends stop dreaming, go out there and LIVE!!!

My adorable son Dalton Christopher born 2/15/2012

Before I was a mom!!

Before I was a mom I would stay up all night long just to watch TV. I would work from 8pm to 6am and then go straight to school and still not be tired. Before I was a mom I spent my paychecks on clothes, shoes, and things I never really needed. Before I was a mom I went to parties almost every weekend. I didn't care about anybody or anything but myself. I did not put much heart into education or work or didn't care what people said to me or the tips they were giving me about life. Whenever an adult spoke to me, all I could say was "whatever". But all that was BEFORE I became a parent. Now my clubbing turned into PJ parties watching Spongebob and new Disney movies over and over and over again. My bed time is now at 9pm and my alarm clock are my children who run into my room each morning and scream "mom we are hungry". There is no sleeping in, or being careless. Now I spend my money on my children instead of myself. Right now I am tired, but right now I am a mom. All of this sounds so horrible to some of you, I am sure. But my children are the best thing that ever happened to me. They brighten my day, put a smile on my face every day. I became an adult and take advice from others and give advice. I care more about others then myself, school became very important to me. I want to be somebody, I want to give a great example to my babies. I would not change a thing. I am a mom now and I am going to be a mom for the rest of my life and this is the greatest job a woman could ever have. I feel accomplished and found my destiny in my life, I found myself. Sometimes there are days when I doubt myself but when my children say the three words "I love you" I know I am doing everything just right.

Thomas the cat.

Dear friends,
About 4 months ago we have adopted a Kitty. Beautiful redish- white male who we named Thomas or Tom or meowzer :) He is a very good kitty who loves to sleep, eat, and play. Last night he gave us a huge scare, he "ran" away. He was gone almost all night and I have spent half the night searching for him. It was not typical for Tom, he usually never leaves the front porch, he doesn't like water, but show me a cat that does. It was raining really bad last night and he was nowhere to be seen. I called him, walked up and down the street but he was nowhere to be found. Many thoughts crossed my mind, I thought he was eaten by some wild animal for dinner, or late night snake. Or ran over, or strangled by a snake. I cried and waited, and every 30 min I went out and called him over and over and over again with no results.
When I finally started to close my eyes I heard a loud miau and somebody trying to open the front door. We are talking about 6am here when our little "adventurer" finally came home. He jumped on my lap as soon as I sat back down, look at me and started to cuddle and purr. I was so happy to see him that I couldn't even yell at him, but would he even understand why I'm yelling? Probably not :) as I was watching him snooze away I wondered where he was and what was going on through his head. Those are questions that will stay unanswered forever since animals.don't talk. But I know for sure that he was very happy to be back home, his actions proved it to me. He is still sleeping at its already noon, he had a very long night but thankfully he is back home and....grounded!!!!!

The little things matter!!!

Today I have finally got my last box with the rest of my belongings from Kansas. I was so happy unpacking each item that I almost cried. Charlie calls me a hoarder but I see it differently, to me every item has a meaning. May it be a coffee mug. For Charlie is " just" a mug for me is more then that. It reminds me of a great gift he gave me years ago, he probably already forgot it came from him but I didn't. So as you all can see little things matter in life. I am starting to feel at home here in South Carolina, now that I have all of my things back, I can finally say welcome home my family, welcome home.